Signs

As Im listening to Annie Lennox's "I Put a Spell on You" and masking that huge grin because I'm a little bit proud of myself that... I am writing again.

Signs. Man subconsciously ask for signs on certain decisions. Mostly on huge decisions. Some don't believe because it lack a certain control and you leave the decision making on circumstances or events that lead to your resolution. Even in the bible God uses signs.

For me, it's a load of crap I tell you. I used to believe in them but as I get older, looking for signs is just your justification for having bad decision skills. And then I met a Muslim girl a few months back,  she was new from my team and while we we're talking heart to heart at a park in Abu Dhabi, she told me that in her religion, they believe in signs and she was asking for one and the sign lead to us meeting.

Why am I looking for signs in this time of my life?

Because I'm in a rut. I felt this 4 years ago and I'm feeling this again. And it sucks. At first I thought I was just tired but then the days became weeks and now it's been 2 months.

I saw this post on my Facebook account and I thought I'll share it here. I've been feeling physically and mentally exhausted and the fourth one, lost of purpose. I mean, I love my job right now, I definitely love my job, it's the best job in the world but there's something lacking, there's that hole that I feel that's still there's something that else that I need to be doing.

So I guess God is slowing me down so I can make this 180 degree turn. I have been thinking a couple of weeks now, and I think this ideas must be executed. 

So here's the deal-io, I know that I'm about to make a big decision in my life and 2 months ago, I didn't know what to do or what yet to do or why the heck am I even feeling this. Now I know. But I am not yet revealing this until my birthday which is 3 weeks from now. 

Ciao.